21 October 2011

Beyond

Five Minute Friday, brought you by The GypsyMama.  Write for five minutes, no editing, no perfecting, just writing.

Beyond.


The other day I sent a text message to a friend in which I explained 'I know my limits, and I know what happens if I go beyond them.'  I was referring to my deep need for alone time at that particular moment.


The reality is, I've been toeing the line of 'beyond' for about a month now.  And now that I'm away and resting I feel like I've finally been given a vital U-Turn and with my back to the limits, I'm ready to be brought back to that healthy place of balance.

You know, when serving is your job, it's easy to wake up one morning and find yourself in the Land of Beyond without even knowing how you got there.   I feel like I was doing well . . . then I blinked.  I was no longer in my 'Kansas' . . . and Toto was nowhere to be found.  And that overwhelming exhaustion took me to a place far beyond my capacity to 'just keep swimming.'

I've been spending a few days with dear friends who have spoiled me and given me a treasured rest.  Their awesome Boy told me that I was his favorite part of the day.  I feel like I'm starting to come back from beyond my limits. 

27 comments:

Leebird said...

I so understand the beyond moment. Thankful for the rest you've been gifted! LeeBird

Deb. said...

Thanks for stopping by!

Eva said...

"It's ok as long as I know it's worthwhile" ... and then you are there... beyond, not knowing how!

So true!Blessings!

wildoptimist said...

Hello,
I'm stopping by from Gypsy Mama, and your post made me smile in recognition.  I have so been there myself,lately.  You phrase it well and I can almost hear relaxation seeping around the words.  Enjoy the step away- do it right- so that you come back invigorated ;)

Beth said...

Hey Deb! Been praying for good rest...so thankful that God is answering. :)

Shelly Miller said...

Oh, we all know these days of bone ache tiredness and needing the rest of God.  Lovely, honest words.  You convey your circumstance well.

adiamondintherough said...

So glad that you are getting rest. I find myself continuously trying to figure out my own limits and  always, always trying to find a place of rest for my soul. Glad to know that I am not alone. Blessings to you and thanks for your honest words.

Monster Mom said...

You know, I was just told yesterday that I am "beyond", and need to find my way back. I guess it's time to turn it around. But oh what a steep climb it will be...

grittymartha said...

i understand the "beyond the limits" living.  we aren't having it in the same way now that we have, but when our children were small, we lived in Jamaica.  the phone for long distance calls was in our house. the loud speaker was in our house.  people were in and out ALL the time.  i had my babies during that 7 yrs. period...3 of them.  privacy?  right:)
no, it wasn't as primitive as your life i'm sure. but it was beyond my limits on the days i wanted to just hang out in my pj's.  God was good then and has continued to be...curing over 40 years in ministry...most in the pastorate.  it is a very intrusive life in many ways, but eventually, giving (almost) becomes a lifestyle.  thanks for your post.  loved it:)

Bobnrobn said...

Tell  BOY, yo momma sends him a KISS  and an equally big THANK YOU for caring for her girl!!!!  xoxoxox

AndreaDawn said...

I lived in the land of beyond for far too many years . . . boy, does that take a toll.  Glad that you are back to the place where you can take the time to rest and breathe and recharge.  Great post!

Stacy said...

..."You know, when serving is your job, it's easy to wake up one morning and find yourself in the Land of Beyond without even knowing how you got there."  I woke up to find myself there after having been in this exhausting land for far too long (years!)  and not even realizing it.  So thankful you were aware....and took the time to "escape".     Great write!

Ekim025 said...

Deb, Judy and I have you on our hearts, Barb Owens and I have been trying to find an email address for you. We follow your blog and pray for you based on the info we glean. CBC Deptford keeps each other up to date on what we hear read and find between the lines. Lil' Sis you have a big team lifting you up on a consistant basis. Remember He cares for you and He is the Head of His Church. He moves the Church in your  regard to keep you before himself when you are awake asleep or anywhere in between. When you know your limits do your best to stay within them, when you can't be truthful and tell Him so but do your best awaiting His response to your need. Be expectant it will come.  Keep us fresh on what your needs are, we are great at the business of prayer. We would rather be explicit when we ask in your regard. Lk 11:9 He will not give us a snake if we are asking for a fish. Expect what you ask for filtered through what He knows as best for you, but expect to receive what you need. Thank you for the opportunity to partner with you where you are and we can not be.
We Love yah Deb
Mike Hutson for all of us here behind you

Writingcanvas said...

I am jealous of your rest and time away!  :)  We sure all do need these peaceful times away! May you find much refreshment and encouragement!

Joy S said...

Hi Deb! Just wanted you to know that I really love your blog and think that you have a gift for writing. Thanks for your openness and honesty, too, as it not only shows us more of what to pray for but I imagine it also helps you a bit to process through everything. I can't imagine being in your shoes and going through the challenges you've been facing for years now as you've been training and then ministering to so many. You are in my prayers, especially now as you take some time to regroup and rest. You are a strong woman and the hand of an infinitely stronger God is on your life and it's exciting to see how much He's been using you in your time in Niger. Keep pressing on and know that there are lots of people lifting you up in prayer every day as you seek to be the hands and feet of Jesus to so many who are hurting so much. 

Deb. said...

Thanks for stopping by Eva!

Deb. said...

Thanks!

Deb. said...

Thanks Shelly!

Deb. said...

You are definitely not alone. Hope you find your place of rest.

Deb. said...

Steep, but good. Hope you're already on your way back.

Deb. said...

Wow, I couldn't imagine! My oven sounds like your telephone! : )

Deb. said...

Can't wait to see you!!

Deb. said...

Thanks Andrea!

Deb. said...

Stacy, hope you are able to find rest yourself. Thanks for stopping by.

Deb. said...

Thanks Mike! And a big 'hello' and 'thank you' to the whole CBC family!

Deb. said...

Thanks! Hope you are able to find some rest time too.

Deb. said...

Thanks for your encouraging words, Joy!